I don't normally put much personal stuff on here, but I thought I'd let you know how I was doing. Thanks so much for all your encouragements and kind words. We are so blessed with a wonderful group of family and friends who are taking such good care of us.
I'm doing well physically. I'm battling severe headaches (which I rarely get), but other than that, I'm feeling almost back to normal.
Emotionally is a different story! I went through a miscarriage a few years ago (before Avery) but in that situation, I was only 6 weeks along and it wasn't nearly as painful. I would have never guessed that it would be so hard. But I know that every day will get easier.
The hardest parts are just the random things that remind me that our lives have changed. Like seeing my maternity clothes all cleaned and ready to go. And seeing Avery's "Big Sister" t-shirt in her drawer (that's how we told my parents that we were expecting). And not having my baby bump anymore (this was one of the first signs that something was wrong - my bump was gone).
Today, for the first time, Avery tried to tell me "I love you". What more could I ask for?
I am blessed.
i know i keep telling you, but i am really sorry and i'm glad you took time to share your thoughts and feelings with us. you will have reminders for awhile, you may always have small reminders, but i know you also have lots to be thankful for! after logan died, i had a devotional, "grieving the child i never knew", by kathy wannenburg and it was really helpful to me in our grieving process after logan past. you may want to check it out!
ReplyDeleteOh, Aimee,
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing how you are doing. It is so important to grieve and allow yourself to feel that way. We are grieving with you, too, and are here when you guys need us.
What an awesome blessing from God that He chose this time for Avery to say I love you! Kind of like a little hug from Him in this difficult time. We love you guys and we're praying for you.
ReplyDeleteMore hugs to you.....
ReplyDeleteAimee- my heart hurts for you, and my prayers are with you guys....
ReplyDeleteAimee,
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry to hear about your loss. You will be in my thoughts.
Heather
I'm so sorry to hear this Amy. My heart goes out to you and your family.
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